Saturday, April 07, 2007
Sorry, guys. My wonky brain chemistry got the better of me and I sorta dug a big muddy hole and hid in it for a while.
I decided that the combination of tough school deadlines plus design deadlines wasn't letting me do stuff I really enjoyed--like coming here & playing with you guys, or designing things I was actually happy with, or even hanging around with people that live like three blocks from me. It was all making me tired and cranky and obsessive and more of an isolated, reclusive basket case who locks the door and leaves the phone off the hook.
Oozing with self-loathing! Ya can't have me without an oozing of self-loathing. Supersize me some self-loathing!
I'm thinking I'll give school a rest for a couple of semesters so I can fiddle with designs without going completely off the deep end. I think I can't multi-task very well if I'm bored with the things I'm working on and I'm definitely bored as hell with school. It all just winds up making me depressed and then OCD kicks in and I obssess on the wrong goddamned stuff instead of my projects. I can normally focus it on schoolwork but sometimes it just goes haywire and then I dig the big muddy hole and crawl in it for a bit.
Just thought I needed to ramble a bit & explain.
Meanwhile, I have got a skirt I worked up on my knitting machine a week or so ago, a pair of black lace kneesocks, and some skanky red rayon undies. Pictures and patterns coming up as soon as I round up some batteries for the camera.